Vengeance Is Mine Inc.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Today I inflicted nazi camp studying on myself because I realised if I didn't I would fail and you'd be a stupid dumbass to be studying in a school and not do well if you weren't planning on quitting or leaving. I forced myself and ended up studying 7 hours and will study 3 more later. Amazing what I can do when I want to, I'm not all that bad!! So I sat at the grizzly grey tough swivel chair and used mainly a yellow highlighter and a pencil which I am sure by the end of all this I will detest. I didn't let myself listen to any music and only drink minimal amounts of water so I won't keep peeing, because everytime I get up to pee I tend to deviate and do something else like eat which causes me to feel full, lie down and feel like an absolutely moronic slug. Months ago I was dying to watch Closer and Birth, and any movie I could get my hands on, now those 2 movies are right at home and I'm not even considering them. I think the best part of my day will be bathing and sitting in the bathtub like a baby and scrubbing my hair with black shampoo and body with a sugarcane almond husk scrub. My mind tends to recall the most excruciating or embarrassing or painful moments of my life when it is idle and it'll play on a bit till I, nowadays, say 'Shut up!' (with a head jerk) and shake it off. My only real-life friends who appear before my eyes are my parents, grandmother, brother, sister, cousin (keeps jumping because just now we watched a science show on kids central -yes, i actually did that- and folded a paper airplane that you can flap and it will create a sharp sound). The rest are little 0.4 cm tall words on the disgusting handphone (carol, I challenge you to really give up your handphone) or voices hard to put a face to over the phone. It's like living in a very warped little world, and I like it very much. On the bright side, the work isn't the worst thing. The worst thing is the highly imbecilic and irritating advertisement on kids central (which I truly hate. -jingle, twinkle, wiggle, jump, jump, music, children obviously painfully shy at pulling faces- "your wotching kidz centra!!!!!!!!!!!" SHUT UP) which promote Spiderman but which if you ask me make it appear more moronic than it deserves because it is a great movie. "I was crossing de road, and I saw de car coming, and I diden know what to do, and de nex ting I knew I was in his arms!" "-pointing and jumping like poodle requiring severe tranquilizing needle- there he is!!!!!!!!!!!!" (yes yes, we know......now stop jumping before we cut off those lovely pigtails of yours -smile-) Ohhhh, shutty up.

moled at 6/21/2005 04:16:00 AM

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i can see into your past, madame mary.

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