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Saturday, April 09, 2005

There's something electric

Saturday, again! Again. Again. Again. Again. Again. I spent all day organising papers and files and daydreaming as usual which I do every single Saturday. I think my body is conditioned to automatically feel great urge to do work on Saturday, then slowly rejecting that urge, daydreaming, then making up its mind to do it on Sunday, then do nothing much on Sunday. It's quite scary to know that my body has that trap already set every, single weekend. It's scientifically true, because I bet it can produce hormones that induce different urges in me, and have an energy level that makes me not want to do work. It's odd how people can be focused on a task and not lose focus! If a nice song comes on the computer, don't you stop to sing along, and then want to choose a nice new song to sing along to, and so on? Or when I wrap myself with this blue and green polkadot scarf my auntie gives me simply because I feel bored of myself organising papers in home clothes, it's inevitable that my mind starts to wander how else I can wrap the scarf and maybe make it a skirt and try it out in front of the mirror and then, ooh, need to pee, then ooh, need to shit, ooh, hungry, ooh, what's everyone else in the house doing, ooh, phone call and then, nothing's done, but it's NOT MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't been flossing my teeth. Little things like that which seem to be insignificant and silly add to to the general mood in a person's life. If I don't brush my teeth, don't see John Bean next to my pillow before I sleep, don't have the blue clouds and sheep blanket, pillow and bolster, don't eat vitamin c in the morning, happen to drink milo that tastes disgusting and bland in the morning, heard someone make a bad joke, plus observing little things in people that seem unimportant, have fingernails that are too long for my liking, I could be a very unhappy person. Each of these small things have a puny little unknown instantly impactful and seemingly instantly forgotten effect on a person's mood, but added together they actually have a significant effect. Ah-ha! Oppositionally (?), if I had played with glue for a few seconds, smelled pineapple scented candles, trimmed my nails, touched someone's long eyelashes, used a pair of chopsticks which I like, drank a juice like apple blackcurrant which is refreshing and nice, walked past a poster of someone with pink hair, all these little little lovely things with little effects could make me very, very happy indeed!

Suddenly very excited to start working on my DS again once I finish all the other homework. Especially after watching EASY RIDER!!!!!!!!!! It's, according to Mister L and Mr. H (with a bad back), 'the movie of the sixties'! And Mister I (xer) lent it to me!!!!! FINALLY!!!! And it was CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'Captain America' (Peter Fonda) and Billy (Dennis Hopper) sell drugs to make lots of money, spend it all on 2 silver motorcycles and travel across America to get to Mardi Gras. On the way, for nights they camp outside, they went to a hippy commune where the silly hippy kids from the cities were staying and dying and struggling to live and trying to farm, went to a hot spring where they stripped themselves and frollicked with 2 other women, went to jail, met a lawyer, and finally went to Mardi Gras then to a cemetery where they took drugs and went on a 'trip' and camped outside and the next day were riding their motorcycles near some mountain when 2 duck-shooters drove along and couldn't stand mad billy's long hair and shot him and captain america (his real name in the movie is wyatt) turned his bike around and billy was vibrating with blood and captain america drove off to get help and the duck shooters turned around and shot captain america who exploded. Peter Fonda is beautiful, and Dennis Hopper is wild. It was more about the american dream than the hippy dream because to the two of them the american dream was i think to be rich and have fun and retire in florida. but in the end on their last night camping out captain america says 'we blew it' three times and went to sleep, though they went to mardi gras and had fun. At the hippy commune, the city-dwelling hippy kids were there, in this deserted barren land, skinny and sowing seeds hoping for a reward, and before they ate one of them said a long prayer which went something like: "We have sowed our seeds and hope it is of some worth. We only ask for simple food, to satisfy our simple taste. Thank you for a place, to take a stand." and the hippy who said it seemed so pained and on the verge of tears. I don't know how watching it can give me anything concrete for my DS, but I loved it and now I just, understand everything a lot better!!!!!!!

Now wouldn't it be fun if we were all witches and knew spells and had cauldrons!

moled at 4/09/2005 02:54:00 AM

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