Thursday, June 17, 2004
Anyway, hello, I am still online.
APPLE IPOD 20% DISCOUNT AT WHEELOCK PLACE, HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!
Lynn said 'thank you smithie' and reading my blog makes her feel that being disgusting is fine and normal! makes me feel rather monstrous but nice.
desiree sure has intuition, yesterday she asked me to go to wild wild wet today, and LOOK AT THE WEATHER. JUST LOOK AT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! the sun is shining so brightly into my room i am going mad. i think i told her i need to do work, but JUST LOOK AT THE WEATHER. brandon went and he said his skin is peeling and hurting. I WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO ME. it's just the idea of a nice, lovely, wet, sunny paradise (in singapore? WOW! as if singapore ever really had this sort of place)!!!!!! ooh look, the sun's rays are less strong now. good. i feel less tormented already. i really am an idiot, i should just concentrate on studying on some days and enjoy myself on others instead of bemoaning my fate everyday, it really is stupid. oh look again, the sun is shining bright again. i MUST swim today or i will die.
moled at 6/17/2004 06:49:00 PM
WILD WILD WET LOOKS GORGEOUS
THE WEATHER REPORTS THAT IT WILL BE SUNNY ALL DAY
BEYOND THE SEA HAS JUST PLAYED ON MY COMPUTER (IT IS A PROMPT!)
I WILL GO FOR A SWIM LATER
i love amusement parks!!!!!!!!!!! i want to take every ride at wild wild wet! the most formiddable one seems to be the sidewinder, where you and someone else sit on this float and just HOLD ON while you are flung around some white slopey board thing. and the leisurely 35m cruise! and the tsunami! help, help. ahhhh the song has just come on again!for now, it might be best to channel all this exciting energy into maths. but, what a waste. what a waste.
moled at 6/17/2004 06:24:00 PM
I have just gone to see the preview of the closing event of this year's arts festival, at the grass patch opposite northpoint, it is a percussion group fom korea called DULSORI. the host was hilarious, she was wearing something like pyjamas (since its only a preview, sorta like full dress rehearsal before tomorrow) and spoke hilariously!!!!! so did the others, how adorable. 'wah-cah' meant 'one clap'. 'hwai-tye-goo an drah-goh' meant white tiger and dragon. it was absolutely AWESOME. it looked like a war scene, with flags billowing behind the stage, the 3-levelled stage majestically set against the night sky, and the first and second level had these beautiful orange drums that would surround the percussionist and some cymbals, and the third had these big drums that you had to stand with your back facing the audience and shake and jump with the entire body to hit. and then it just hit me!!!!!!!!!!!! (actually, at the start of the breathtaking performance) that my dream job, aside from being an astronaut, part of the urban dream capsule, professional backpacker and the author of those books with tons of beautiful photos and words, is to be part of a percussion band. it would be the best aggressive passive glorious job, and i would LOVE it to death. and i am someone who seldom questions why we study what we study, but tonight i really think, if those are what i want to be, WHY STUDY NOW!!!!!!!!!! (okay bye, the OC has started.)
moled at 6/17/2004 07:26:00 AM
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
the loveliest part of the tsd workshop after the cleanup; esmonde named her stacey
bug-eyed tourist from previous post! my first secret tourist photo!
MUSTARD NAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today's obsession: Lolita.
OH, MY LIMPID NYMPHET! said Humbert Humbert.
Nymphet: a pubescent girl regarded as sexually desirable.
Now, everyone, think, were you a nymphet? Humbert defined one as a girl from 9 to 14, those he found most delectable.
The happiest moment of the day was when I finally finished my literature essay with my lovely black pen! the second happiest was when I saw that there was luncheon meat for lunch, i must have eaten at least 12 pieces. Anyhow, I have decided that Lolita is a splendid name, and I might name my daughter that. oh my god, it means a seductive adolescent girl!!! to think i put it as my nickname in caps one day, because one day when we gave each other names mine was Lolita Titsmore.
today was life at home again with the cousin and the sister, them playing the sims, killing the people in the sims, enjoying it, sister whining about ghost of dead person in the sims, me screaming at them a few times, sister whining that everyone is calling her 'stupid', as we do everyday, sister posing for a picture so horridly sweetly in my feather boa and red and white high heels, me getting bored of the literature essay halfway, staring at my toenails and impulsively painting half of them mustard, and of course, me going delirious at finishing the essay and so playing for the next 1 hour, forgetting about work after reading lolita all morning.
Hey, nymphet and lolita have almost the same meaning!!!!!!!! no wonder the book is called lolita.
oh mother mother mother, i finally feel as if the later part of the holidays (post tsd) has finally taken off! and i dont feel quite badly deranged anymore, but well-deranged! this is all great. now to go downstairs and annoy my housefly sister.
i foresee that from tomorrow onwards, i will have to work very very hard. as long as i get the sundress, as long as i get the sundress. it is as if the summer sundress, part of it, will help in a happy little 60s lovely sunshine delusion. the term sundress already suggests so, actually, like something from the 60s, something that now can bring you back to the 60s. and i feel the urge to buy a dress. it's a nice urge. so, i want my summer sundress with blue flowers and red centres drawn on it, size 6, and i will not shop for the rest of the holidays!!!!!
anyway, humbert humbert said he found lolita's matted eyelashes (after she cries and makes her whole pure face slightly swollen) morbidly alluring. that is the perfect term to describe things these days for me.
Ha ha, last night i wore the red singapore airlines uniform print cancer hat, and when my mother asked 'why are you wearing a hat?' i said, 'because i dyed my hair pink' and she said, 'HUH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?' and i took it off and smiled with a flourish. Haaaa! she said she almost got a heart attack!!!!! how exciting these tricks are! (actually, that might happen one day)
i realised that the haircutter cut my utmost front hair (one might call it a fringe, except i have none) until it is very short, chopped it off till it was almost 1cm and growing out on top of my forehead mole, which is the only hair that grows in the normal direction on my head, which is fascinating.
tomorrow i will wake up early and engage in the glory of maths. oh no, everything seems formiddable suddenly. i intend to happily blindly choose what i feel like logically studying logically on logical days (everyday) and i have a feeling it will work out in the end.
maths always makes everything better.
moled at 6/16/2004 03:49:00 AM
Monday, June 14, 2004
THIS EARLY MORNING,
my father was driving me to school and i saw the most amazing thing!! the sky was bright and sunny, but there were dark clouds. the amazing thing was that the dark clouds were so low and close to earth! they were hovering just above an expressway, several of them over several expressways. wow.
we had a tsd cleanup, the messiest and most draining yet! well a whole tub of black paint was found spilt on the floor (and orange was almost spilt) and we spent some time scrubbing away with thinner and i thought i'd never have anything much more to do with black paint after them jailbars. in a way, i've grown to LIKE black paint.
anyhow, we lazed around waiting for the floor to dry after vacuuming things like people's feet and i was swinging the thing around violently as it got caught on some cloth, then some plastic and the next thing i knew when i swung it, it was on arika's butt and she must have felt like someone was sucking up her skirt to peep at her undies. hohoho.
i am severely obsessed with my mustard-coloured left thumbnail and index fingernail! it's made me realised how coloured i am today with an evil pink singlety thing and turquoise ring and brown spectacles and actually green underwear, not that it can be seen. i like being so coloured. esmonde said i look like a psychedelic pink orange blue thing in the middle of the rainbow.
when i was at the busstop waiting for buses home, i deliberately waited extra excruciatingly long for the bus that takes the poor tourists to the zoo, as i found them intriguing. one poor caucasian couple (tall thin man, fat short woman) were EVER so puzzled!!!!! they kept walking around the busstop, and he must have checked the sign 5 times as the bus was taking forever.
then on the bus i sat opposite a lone male caucasian tourist, probably early 20s, looking very....absorbed. he had blue eyes that if were moved a bit more, would be crossed. he was absorbed in reading a 'lonely planet' book on singapore, malaysia and brunei and i caught him digging his nose and he was very very unconscious of his own actions. when he watched that stupid singaporean show that copied the amazing race, he started smiling gradually, like a little baby. and i took a photo of him in secret. i shall start a collection of secret photos taken of people on the bus (impossible on the mrt).
and when i was bathing in the bathtub, i took out my chewing gum and realised how absolutely colour coordinated it was with the mustard nails, mustard and light turquoise. then i was trying to get all the black paint out and instinctively tried using the sticky, wet gum to stick it all off. and it worked! whaddyaknow, chewing gum works well with black paint and thinner marks! and so i used it to get all the patches off. it turned dirty light blue, but was still color coordinated with mustard.
rather an amazing day.
oh, lovely mustard nails, i adore thee!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh, have i mentioned, this morning i was sitting at the garden tables with the tsd people and waiting for the workshop to be opened, and i felt extremely at ease, as if i was meant to be there. when i asked for opinions, vivienne said my mustard nails look like i have jaundice, zhan hui said, 'mm...extremely' which could have meant they are extremely mustardy or that they are extremely nice.
i shall go paint the rest of my fingernails MUSTARD!!!!!!!!!!
(a nice colour would be clementine's vermillion hair, or ELECTRIC BLUE)
moled at 6/14/2004 11:59:00 PM