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Sunday, May 09, 2004

ho mummy! i have found out i could be a pagan, which could be a non-christian, worshipper of many religions, or hedonist. so if i am a hedonist, i am a pagan. a hedonist is someone whose actions are channelled towards the pursuit of pleasure, which most of my actions are, and i greatly view pleasure as a huge issue in my life. its intriguing, i could be a pagan.

today i read the dictionary for 10 minutes!! it was fascinating. people today use the word toga like its some fashionable word that if you dont know, you're a goon. the dictionary defines it as a garment worn by the romans.
i'm obsessed with the beatles these days. on friday we had that beach romp (defined by the dictionary as behaving wildly and joyfully) where we sat very near the water on the rocks and dared the crabs to come out, jumped into the rather disgusting leaf strodden sea water (NOTHING like gold coasts'!!!!!!!) and i submerged myself till my neck, and then everyone said, oh what a nice pink bra that is. it was a thrill. we were a little delirious (defined as being in violent excitement).
after that romp i sat outside the tsd room listening to the beatles!!!!!!!!!!! i find that simply amazing! that i could, well, listen to the beatles while in school! zhan hui and yin ren were listening to it, and i heard yin ren singing at the top of his voice 'we all live in a yellow submarine' before entering the guys toilet. that was while i was sitting on the toilet bowl, and oddly his voice echoed all throughout the female toilet. i sat on this big black structure trying to ressurect my water soaked phone, wondering about ringo starr's drum bits in the beatles' songs. it was a lovely sixties friday!

i went jogging yesterday and today- many familes at the reservoir park, some seeming more pathetic than others. oh what am i saying, they all looked happy. i wonder if i'll become like that, a simple family going to the park on the weekend, playing ball with each other, happy in their own circle. i dont think i should like doing that. i suddenly had the oddest feeling that i want boys. i dont mean gigolos, i mean male children! what would i do with a daughter. i dont think i'd be the close huggable mother to a daughter who go shopping and are best friends. the thought makes me a little sick, actually. i'll have male kids and make them grow little hair tails and cut their nails and hair. i'll give one a mohawk hairstyle and another the hairtail hairstyle, my husband will be bald and my hair will be as it is now.

i get intense spurts of this certain feeling, which is that i want to ride a rollercoaster!! sometimes i'd just be sitting, talking to someone, when i get the strongest feeling that i would like to ride one. it's odd when you're in school, which could be one of the furthest opposite places when you compare it with movieworld or dreamworld, where there are people in colourful clothes, bikinis, they sell churos, they have these great big rides, staff is really friendly unlike school staff, and its a great big amusement park. school is a bit like an amusement park, but a lousy one. that day i got the idea and desiree and i went to play yahoo graffiti in the library computers! we thought, ohh!! our new fascinating pasttime! online pictionary during our breaks! heaven! but the connection was pathetically slow we got 0 points and gave up.

i need to attend a retro affair, cut my hair, take rollercoasters, eat churos, swim, paint my room, clear my room, go reverse bungee, watch survivor with a fellow survivor fan for this friday's finale, eat chubby hubby, open a hair cutting business, get an A for napfa running, bake a cake. tomorrow i shall find out if there are pagans in tsd.

moled at 5/09/2004 08:31:00 AM

be a goldmember.
i can see into your past, madame mary.

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