Thursday, April 01, 2004
life with short hair is interesting! when i bathe and i shampoo my hair it's like scrubbing a dog.
SCREAM!!! Latoya, not John, is in the bottom 3!!!! by the way john looks much better tonight! his hair is rather spiky. why oh why do they keep showing close up shots of him not smiling?!
anyway yes, i feel like i am scrubbing a little puppy's head with bubbles and shampoo, when it is in fact my own. conditioning my hair is super fast and drying my hair can be done in one minute flat when it used to take more than an hour. amazing. and when i used to discriminate against guys gelling their hair, i am doing it now! waxing, rather! standing in front of the mirror early in the mornings using wax to make my hair stand.
today esmonde told us about boils and i almost died laughing. oh my. and it was just this morning or last that i said school wasnt happy enough. im so glad im taking tsd, i cant imagine myself doing otherwise and its scary to think i almost went to the dark side, really almost did it. and if i did it would have changed my ENTIRE life! im happy im taking tsd because it adds so much meaning to jc (which is otherwise sometimes depressing when im hardly ever depressed in my life) and it is so important that i am taking it now, because now is the time when it's so easy to get caught up in awful work and its tsd that helps you see there's so much more to everything.
today i found out that shaun likes oldies too! he said, 'we are a rare breed' and i totally agree. its always exciting to find other people who like oldies and like the songs i burn like 'build me up buttercup'.
these few days i have robbie williams summer live with me every night. the nights are no longer nice dark and elusive, just sleepy and bright, maybe its because its like having a live crowd here. daytime is no longer happily sunny, except maybe thursdays when we have chaucer, then its nice to just sit in that first level aircon classroom and listen about an 80 year old man wanting sex and seeing the sky outside, then while waiting for gp to start, go sit on the metal swing and sing songs loudly. today, me, carol and esmonde went to swing, and esmonde, like a big, uncontrollable baby, began to swing really violently, till they (sitting) were almost parallel to the ground and i (standing) suddenly screeched and plummeted onto the seat next to esmonde.
my father and i were discussing life philosophies just now, and he seriously said i have a psycho philosophy of life. i told him that i think (which ive been thinking since a few years ago) that the purpose of life is obviously not to work, and not to spend one's life providing for the family (dont have a family then!) and contributing to society (like he said we should). instead we are spending our 10s to 20s studying and probably working after being a fresh graduate. i am hoping i will win the lottery so that i can go travelling around the world before i am too old to do that. nothing like being in an college in singapore to get you thinking about the future and things to do before you die. as well as maths lectures!!! they're my most inspired times!!!! i just sit there, laughing at 'uncle can hear you. uncle is still younggg.' and doodle and copy down coordinate geometry and read quotes carol wrote and write quotes too and everything. its an enclosed space with a bloody green ceiling and it stinks. interesting place for inspiration, i must say.
now now now, i must go sleep. i hope i have an exciting floaty flighty ditzy type of dream tonight!! then i shall have the dream to happily think about on the mrt tomorrow, when i will be wearing the vj uniform for the first time to school! yeeheehee!!!! i should have gotten ALL 29 skirts! now when i sit it cuts some stomach fat and when i breathe it moves, ugh. utterly disgusting. i its a new uniform so im rather intrigued by how i look in it! anyway undergarments and underwear are all visible, hallelujah, i want to go shopping again tomorrow. today desiree and i went to raffles city, just the 2 of us, SHOPPING!!!!! the best part was mango, her favourite place, because of all the happy bright spring colours! i bought a furry red wallet. i wonder if i am a hedonist.
i must buy the black swimming costume and go swimming before that SICKENING time of the month again!! i need to go swimming for lovely emotional rechargement. i love swimming!
i am going to start an ipod fund in the piggy bank, one day, i will either WIN ONE or BUY ONE.
oh no! only a few weeks left in my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! perhaps i will invite a few friends for a sleepover, we can eat prata and lie on the carpet in sleeping bags and draw on the walls, or sleep in the garden. i must invite some new friends too, someday before the house is DESTROYED.
what IS my favorite song?! this minute i decide i like 'killing me softly'. yeehan keeps telling me im becoming lethargic, losing zest and not being myself at all. she says it ever so intensely it scares me.
yay! i shall put sexy beast and peace on my furry red wallet. wow, this is actually quite liberating. this referring to blogging in spurts changing from one thing to another.
today was a glorious day! i salute boils! -cymbal crash-
moled at 4/01/2004 07:10:00 AM
Sunday, March 28, 2004
I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cut me hair short!!!!!!!
i took ever so long to finally decide there at the salon and even at the halfway odd gothic hair (left side stringy, right side curly down) i was trying to decide whether to finally do it, then i decided.
and the feeling when it was done!!!!! i was paying up and saw desiree's ADORABLE baby hair fringe!! and i was just thinking, i did it!!!! my gut feeling RULES. i wanted to go over to that hairdresser who told me 'if you cut your hair, it will be a DISASTER' and show him that it didnt look all that disastrous after all! i felt absolutely GREAT after that, its like i did something madly adventurous and live on thrills like that!! it just reaffirmed that thrills like that can keep me alive and burning. i just find this all so amazing.
YES, YAY.
i feel like an ns bushman now.
and i reckon i look almost exactly like my little brother! i look like a shorter sissy twin with bigger hair!
only BUT: it isnt as short as i'd like it to be!!!!! i kinda took a scissors and cut a bit off for fun. ah, i didnt kind of do that, i did that. oh no harm.
YAAAY.
time to look for a tsd acting monologue!! i think we're starting on acting tomorrow at the workshop!!!!!!
i cant wait to take the mrt tomorrow morning and surprise all the regular people i see every morning. what's different is that they cant and essentially wont open their mouths to comment like friends do.
i can no longer skulk around the house with black tressy locks all around my face. instead i walk around like an innocent cavewoman. goodnight.
moled at 3/28/2004 05:31:00 AM
