Thursday, January 08, 2004

what i'd love to be doing now

Yes, John Mayer, yes! I am sitting in front of my computer listening to no such thing!
I cant believe i skipped my first tsd lesson to diarrhoea!!!!!!! TSD!!! darn that flaccid prawn that looked peachy black and i still ate it because i love prawn mee. and then i got cramps. and its the sea sports carnival tomorrow. WHYYYYYYYY.
what made my day though, is that i watched sesame street. and it was elmo!!!!!!!!
'hi, this is elmo, and this is dorky. say hi dorky!'
and the camera shows the idiotic looking goldfish moving an inch.
'buhbye! elmo loves you! say bye, dorky!'
and the camera shows the idiotic looking goldfish moving an inch.
why are they friends, i cant comprehend.
and there was the adventures of winnie the pooh! my favourite sunday morning show as a kid!!! when we used to go to castle green on the weekends, every sunday morning i'd have orange juice in a mickey mouse cup, and mushroom omelette with baked beans! i'd sit in front of the tv, put my food on the glass table and eat breakfast in my white with light purple polkadots nightdress and watch the show! and the show is hilarious and piglet is so stupidly adorable!! so is pooh. piglet tried to tell pooh he was having hiccups by scribbling the word hiccup all over a piece of paper, and pooh said, 'oh MY, piglet, i like it very much. is it a picture of me?'
heehee.

i'd love to swim now, go to the beach or pool! but cant. i hate endometriums!! when i think of water, i think of floating, when i think of floating, i think of swimming, when i think of swimming, i think of swimming costumes, which makes me think of shopping at royal sporting house, which makes me think of their changing rooms, which makes me think of trying on their costumes, which makes me think of that piece of plastic thing they stick on the private part area of the costume for hygiene reasons. isnt it odd how water leads me to eventually think of private parts in a split second.

i also want to take roller coasters!!!! other than the UTTER feeling of being on a holiday and being with lovely people all day, the next thing i miss most are the rollercoasters, my god, i want to take a rollercoaster now!!!!!! tower of terror!!!!!!! next time, i'm taking lethal weapon and dont even want to close my eyes for a single second.

a few months ago during the prelims, i came home on a bright and sunny day and looked up at springleaf road, and the sun was shining brightly and it looked like a..bouelevard (is that it?). its this whole road going ALL the way up, lined with trees and houses and with a really clear beautiful view of the sky and clouds, and i thought, one sunny day, i am going to take a picture of this from exactly where i was standing! maybe that sunny day is today, except my cramps are rendering me immobile. i did take one, from my brother's window, not very nice. so, that is just one more thing i must do before i die.

speaking of which, maybe i should go create a box. this box is something everyone should create. get a sturdy shoe box and spend an afternoon decorating it in any way you want. then label it: things to take out of the house should the house catch fire. then put inside it, anything and everything that you think will make you utterly devastated should it be burnt away in a steeeewpid fire, perhaps caused by a silly mistake by anyone using the kitchen, and it destroys your best possessions. so, in will go this and that (for me, diaries mostly, oh did you know, i keep my band ribbons! the red and blue ribbons i used for a few years at band, i kept them!) and when a fire starts, just grab it, and go! wont KILL you to grab it, will it. and ignore your parents' pleas that your life is so much more important. yes, course it is, but then if you can save more stuff, why not!! unless the box is stuck in the fired location, then obviously dont fetch it! actually, why not just...fireproof the box!! aha! then when the house has been burnt to a crisp, you go in, and emerge out to the puzzled neighbours with the PRECIOUS little box and go, 'HALLELUJAH!!!! SEE, I WAS SO SMART!!!!!!' yohoho.

getting slightly deranged. i havent washed my hands in a few hours. odd observation. the result of staying at home, as well as ranting non stop and wanting to get out. in fact, this nice afternoon sans cramps, reminds me of those little days during the prelims and o levels when i just come home and study and think of all those things i wanted to do when the exams are over! those were bright sunny afternoons. like this one. its odd, see, im home from jc with cramps and some diarrhoea, and it actually FEELS like an afternoon when i come home to study for the prelims, rid of my uniform after bathing, not wanting to hit the books again (unless its literature maybe), and dying to go out and play.

ah i realise i have typed all this in the midst of feeling dizzy. i realised that while reaching out for the white rabbit sweet and realised my hand was a bit shaky! reminds me of that time during the speech n drama gathering when i was telling joan and mango how my grandfather died and i couldnt stop laughing while doing it!

so, anyway, im retiring to medicine, rest and the black polkadot book (!!!!). buhbye! elmo loves you!

Tuesday, January 06, 2004