Saturday, October 25, 2003
as long as i know, as long as i know.
deck the halls with boughs of holly,
unjolly day of my life.
moled at 10/25/2003 02:07:00 AM
Friday, October 24, 2003
I AM ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HAVE BEEN WAITING AGES FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HAVE WITHSTOOD STUDYING AND APATHY AND DROWSINESS AND AN INFECTED EAR AND TOE AND A HORRIBLE MOOD AND GROSS FRUITS AND I AM ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WITH MY DEAR COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just love times like these, at night, im online and connected to the rest of the world, and im listening to music and the next thing to do is sleep or just BE online! it gives me a, how should i put it, a sense of something else.
except tonight im feeling less than calm.
WHY??????
oh this is bad.
i am losing my balance. i cant feel calm. oh stop that revolting feeling already.
i think i know why, i didnt watch survivor!!!!!!!!! for the first time in my life, i didnt watch survivor!!! except the last 15 minutes, and i got more agitated when they wanted to vote rupert, and now, i am extra agitated.
im dreaming of a HOLIDAY, the best you could ever get!!!! almost any holiday is a holiday to me, and i love holidays. bubble gum, the airplane ride, packing, shopping for stuff, arriving, the airport, relaxing, the hotel, hotel tv, hotel food, exploring, calling home, being in a foreign place, the smell in the air, EVERYTHING!! its like an adventure!!! winks at the green vegetable.
i am just content to be online! like so many other nights before! i am going to read stargirl.
moled at 10/24/2003 08:54:00 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
this is great.
as i hobble, i can imagine little spurt globules of pus shooting out of my toenail.
it is rather swollen, with the remants of a blood clots i cut off with a nailclipper.
and inside the toe, there is a little black dot. perhaps a sting, or another blood clot.
and it HURTS.
to walk, to touch it, to cut it and worst of all, to hit it.
everytime i peel it open a little, a little pus comes out.
and the toenail is looking more and more SUNKEN IN.
i dont want to go for an operation!!!!! not now!!!!!!!!!
and i applied proflavin or whatever, that yellow liquid. it felt like it was burning the moment i stood up again.
i hate toe infections or ingrown toenails.
especially when i cant get rid of them.
this is very dangerous. i am sitting near tables and chairs and doors and cupboards and drawers.
my poor toe.
i hate it.
moled at 10/21/2003 01:34:00 AM
Monday, October 20, 2003
ain't this white layout just lovely. you could just sink into a world of white and royal evil pink, on a fluffy white bed in a royal palace, with my royal words.
i miss band!!!!!! and i knew li ping knew i would. the peace necklace is my very very best good luck charm, and the retro thing with the descriptions is just about one of the most hilarious things ever. i miss sitting there every single band practice and complaining to each other! and laughing at the idiotic funny juniors who hate molly, and cursing the prawn yet fearing her, and practicing our parts for syf, and mopping up noodle vomit, and counting down to the end of band, ALL THE TIME.
'8 hours left.................................' moan, groan, mutter.
'ahhhhhh, why is it so slow. only 20 minutes past since i last checked.'
'hey! fast! 4 hours left!'
'half an hour, half an hour, half an hour'
we'd all be happy.
and the band uniform is absolutely lovely. the japanese kid uniform, with the blue and red skirt and white shirt with the pin li ping always forgets and the crumpled insect ribbons. and of course, percussion!!! -smirk- we always bring food, always get away with things, and always seem to have the most fun. oh, but of course! -wistful sigh- and our pop was just wonderful! we went to hard rock cafe which was totally unexpected!!!! the whole place was sixties rock and roll, beefy food, and zildjian cymbals on the wall, drumset on stage. and we completed our game of pictionary from fluid fusion, our last performance!! little elephant brought flowers for everyone, and we shifted the instruments from here to there and saw maria acting like mother hen. :D:D:D
i cant wait to get the syf photo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on a more dignified tone, my big toe is throbbing with pain. well, not very dignified, BUT IT IS!!!!! it has a blood clot, and inside the toenail is some black thing stuck there. its times like these that make me appreciate what it feels like to be healthy and fine and dandy and able to jump about. i can imagine myself, prancing around my room, without my toe throbbing, feeling oh-so-happy!! my toe is to be protected at all costs tomorrow.
o levels tomorrow, splendid. i must invoke feelings of agitation by tomorrow. it is vital. goodbye.
moled at 10/20/2003 07:48:00 AM
