Thursday, September 11, 2003
I AM A SEXY BEAST!
(check ye mailboxes)
hold it, hold it! now who is this xiao meeng? and how does xiao meeng know about my little fascination with the little red book and all?! and miss almondize?! how would SHE know??
i have been unable to study efficiently.
that is a statement that makes me sad and angry and most of all, agitated.
i just cant study continuously for such a long period of time!!!!
the reason? somehow, i just know deep down, that it is because, i, simply, do not, enjoy this, nor do i, have a lot of conviction for this, lovely business.
i just do not.
i have the music for company, and most of the time its mister buble himself. (little sausage of a cousin just asked me a question with little flap of dry mucus hanging from his nostril. life at home is like this.) and its mister buble!! dancing with the mike on stage, that old vintage microphone, to the sounds of old classic music.
and the dreams, they are not helping! at least ONE intense dream a night, is enough to make me wake up feeling more intensely agitated than before!! last night, i dreamt that my maid stole the money my grandmother was giving me, and then she was shouting and raving and then wanted to kill us! previous night. i dreamt of the speech and drama gang and hopelessly stupid goons, and we were running in the rain to a convention and so on and on. and when i wake up, its, help!! i need more sleep! minus the dreams! or give me a dream of shopping in new york, skydiving in cairns, waltzing the streets of spain, flea markets in sydney, laughing on planes and the works! i would jump out of bed, all happy and recharged. or wait, i could WILL myself to have a dream like that. hokay, i will will then. tonight, i will try to will, and put a stop to the intense dreams. at this point, the intense dreams are just not as welcome as when i dont have to study intensely! intense days and intense nights make me go insane. then again, according to the giraffe, the only way to stay sane is to go insane. thus, in essence, I AM SANE!!!!!! I AM! I AM! interesting fact: someone in singapore has the name A M GROSS.
i HAVE to depart. this half-hearted stagger between studying and everything else is ending!! on sunday, the nightmare will be over. finally. its the prelims, minus more intense studying. yahooo!
moled at 9/11/2003 10:07:00 PM
Sunday, September 07, 2003
MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL YE FAITHFUL!!
(O sacred head, now wounded. HAHAHAHAA, this was a warm up song at band)
i cannot wait for christmas!
christmas shopping-agonising over what to buy for my family, but enjoying the agonising all the same. getting them ridiculous presents or a pathetic version of something they will like. and all the christmas shopping for FRIENDS as well, and card-making! and posting just about 60 cards all at once at the post box and feeling so proud of myself i buy an ice cream from 7-11 next door! and then, the PARTIES!!!! -laughs giggly and drunk- the christmas cheer and the silly ol songs. my favourite is jingle bell rock, but i have a new passion for rudolph the red nosed reindeer. christmas now also equals hippy christmas fest. i love christmas! hohoho!
another thing i love, is swimming. jumping into the pool. lying back and making hair swirl everywhere and trying to see the stars and -hic!- being drunk. i wont ever forget that day!! it was the most magical thing all week. and when i used to swim when the sun was shining super brightly, the patterns the sun made on the bottom of the pool! 2 things that almost automatically get me happy: lovely sunlight and swimming, and at times the hideout.
moled at 9/07/2003 05:04:00 AM
